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2018 Overview & 2019 Intentions

2018 Overview & 2019 Intentions

2018 was quite a ride.

I started the year with a job that I thought I wanted, then jumped to another job I thought I was supposed to want even more. And then I got let go from that job, which turned out to be a good thing. I’m ending 2018 with a clear idea of where I want my career to go, and it’s pretty different from the field I started the year in.

The jobs I’ve had since college are the ones I thought I was supposed to want, but it turns out that they didn’t fulfill me at all. It took a lot of trial and error over the last year and a half, but 2018 is the year I finally found a path that will give me purpose and allow me to use my privilege and experiences to help others. I’ll share more on that in a few weeks when things are finalized ;)

Iceland in May/June of 2018.

Iceland in May/June of 2018.

D.C. cherry blossoms.

D.C. cherry blossoms.

In 2018, I traveled a lot and even went on a spontaneous international trip, which I never, ever thought I’d do. I have a lot of travel anxiety (and regular anxiety), so I didn’t think I want to travel internationally for a while. Not only did I go to Iceland in 2018, but at the end of this year I planned two more international adventures for 2019: Israel/Jordan and London. If someone told me this time last year that I’d go to Iceland on a whim because the tickets were cheap and not only would the trip be anxiety-free, but it would awaken my travel bug, I’d have said they were out of their minds! I’ve never been so excited to be wrong.

In terms of small trips, I got to go to Los Angeles, Portland and Washington, D.C. this year. I spent time with friends I no longer see now that college graduation has scattered us across the country. My year ended with a quick trip to Houston for my cousin’s bat mitzvah, where I got to see a lot of family I haven’t seen in a long time, and then I literally spent the last few days of the year at the beach with family.

I spent a long weekend in Portland, OR with some of my college roommates.

I spent a long weekend in Portland, OR with some of my college roommates.

I also made a lot of progress as a writer in 2018. I got published on a few new websites and started this blog! In the six months I’ve had this blog, I’ve begun to create a brand I’m proud of. If you’re interested in my freelance/journalism writing, there’s a list of articles I published in 2018 here.

Personally, 2018 was a struggle. A lot of my friends began to move out of our hometown and I started to feel lonely and restless. I had never planned on being home for more than a year, but without a steady salary, I didn’t have much of a choice. However, that restlessness prompted me to travel and to find a new career path so I can start to uproot and move somewhere new in 2019.

I had purple hair for half of 2018! It was awesome, but very high maintenance.

I had purple hair for half of 2018! It was awesome, but very high maintenance.

I met many of my small goals in 2018 (like reading a book a month!), but not some of my bigger ones. I procrastinated more than I wanted to. I spent more time feeling sorry for myself when things didn’t work out instead of pushing myself to try new things. It’s okay, because goals can exist until you meet them. I feel good about the things I did accomplish in 2018!

One major lesson I learned in 2018 was that I need to take better care of my physical health. I wasn’t working hard enough to take care of my physical body, and at times, I wasn’t taking care of my mind either. I’m ending the year with a new commitment to exercise, a new therapist and a better grasp on how to eat what I like while getting more energy and keeping my cholesterol lower. My advice to you: get a lot of blood work done and see if your body is missing anything or has too much of something.

Now, onto the new year: 2019.

I’m not much of a resolutions person, because part of me just feels like New Year’s Eve is a fun excuse to party and January 1 is just another day. Like I said above, goals don’t have a year-long expiration date. You can start fresh whenever you want.

2018 plans and goals in my bullet journal.

2018 plans and goals in my bullet journal.

Last year, I set a few goals and intentions for the new year. I met some, some no longer feel relevant and a few will continue on into 2019. Another thing I did was chose 2 words to define 2018: positivity and gratitude. Gratitude is something to always strive to embody and will always be on my list. I definitely feel grateful for all the experiences I had this year and the support of my family and friends. As for positivity, I’m still working on that every day. Sometimes, I’m very good at seeing the silver lining, but I want to get to a place where I see it every day, in everything around me.

My 2019 intentions are to be open-minded, to learn more and to prioritize my happiness. I want to get as much as possible out of the travels I have planned and really appreciate the beauty of these places I’ve never been before. I also have a major career and life goal I hope to meet by the spring - I won’t jinx it by discussing it quite yet.

Sustainability is a big goal and intention for 2019 and beyond for me too. I began putting more thought into my consumerism and habits this year and I will continue to work even harder next year to lead a sustainable life and purchase ethical products. Of course, I’ll blog about it all so you can join me! I truly believe that every small action counts.

And my final goal is to be present. I love blogging, I love social media and the connections I’ve made through it, but I also love being present in the world around me and spending time offline.

Happy new year, may yours be merry and bright and full of good things.

Ask A Queer: Gavan Marie

Ask A Queer: Gavan Marie

My Ethical Fashion Wish List

My Ethical Fashion Wish List